I have worked hard to be the sensual women I am. I truly pride myself with being a genuine, sweet, loving, warm hearted,orgasmic, and ambitious woman. Although I know there is much more growing and experiencing to do, I am happy with my growth.
Looking back, it has been an extensive process of self healing. Looking forward I am excited about sharing my experiences with other women so maybe they can also use my experiences for healing.
Learning self love his hard work. Your attitude changes. The way you see the world changes, and how you interact with other people changes.
One thing I found very disheartening is how others that may not have experienced this change fully reacts to people who have become self loving and comfortable with themselves. Or they have become so used to being or experiencing one thing that it seems like that is the only way.
I have noticed that when I interact with certain men, whether it is dating or talking on the phone or setting up sessions they cannot believe I am so sweet. They think it is a game or I am faking. (A good number of men love and appreciate it) I have heard "Are you always this sweet," or "Are you for real, no one is like this anymore," or "You are truly rare," or "Something is up, you have to be crazy or something, I am waiting for you to snap, no one is that happy."
Some men are really shocked to have, see and feel a sweetly feminine woman. There have been men that actually stopped talking to me because they thought it couldn't be true. It began to seem to me that men like for women to be mean.
I asked one of my good male friends why this is so. He told me that men are not used to genuinely sweet women. He also said that mean women pose a challenge for men, and we all know men like a challenge. But when they are in the relationship they do not like all the drama so would prefer a sweet feminine woman. He went on to say that most men do not like masculine women, they are too confrontational and competitive and they enjoy sex more with a feminine woman. People also have so many walls and guards around themselves and have trouble being open.
So this explained to me in a way why men go into shock when they experience all of this sugar.
I also notice that women go into a form of shock. It is called jealousy or envy. When women see other women that are comfortable with themselves, confident, sweet and loving they sometime feel jealousy or envy. (there are a good number of women who don't experience this) They see something that they wish they had, or may also feel the other woman is phony. You here things like, "Who does she think she is," or "She is not all that." Women even look for things that are wrong with other women to make themselves feel better. They sabotage each other, gossip, lie, betray and just are down right mean.
They don't realize they have all the same gifts as that woman that has found self love. We all are beautifully creative, luscious, sensual, delicious women. Some just have to remember.
When this breakthrough happens our Divine Feminine will be seen, loved and appreciated. We won't find so many ill people looking for their insulin shots, because the sweetly feminine woman will no longer be such an oddity. As the saying goes "Heal a woman, Heal a nation.