Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Straight from the Journal...experiences of the coochie, from pain to bliss from confusion to clarity, watch how it flows

These are from my personal journal. We all need each other to heal and grow. Reading sermon 4 will also help you to understand why I posted this. Maybe you should read it before reading this. It is just an example on how we can use our experiences to heal and grow. It is different stages but we have to be aware of our feelings and be honest with ourselves. This is another example of living sensually. Be aware of feelings and sensations that you experience. Names will be withheld :) and some of the text in some entries.

We really need each other. I was feeling a sense of frustration, impatience, unproductively, loneliness and being under stimulated, spiritually and sexually. This was leading to feelings of anger and irritability as well.

I have been asking to be sent someone to connect with. Someone I could share my love with and not feel like it is being wasted (even though no act of love is wasted). Someone I can share a spiritual, sexual, caring connection with, someone to touch me and hold me.

""Nataka" is here. I didn't know I was going to get what I asked for so soon. We have always had this type of connection. I am happy and excited he is here. Lord knows I've needed it. He is more beautiful then ever and I feel so much love flowing through me. I am inspired and the other feelings I was having ceased.

I feel intense energy when we make love and all I see is divinity. Sometimes the "stuff" people have doesn’t seem to matter. When love flows all you see is their divinity. That is how it is for me. His "stuff" does not matter everything fuses into love and I just want to heal him and protect him and share with him and he do the same for me. I want him to feel happy and his worries dissolve into love.

I have gotten what i prayed for. I am grateful.


Feeling kind of ill today. Maybe a cold.

So its funny how we help each other along in our healing. How through each other we can see the things we need to clear out and the things we need to work on, or we see our own strengths.

In this time "Nataka" has been here I have experienced trust issues. I just don't want to fool myself in thinking that things are one way and they are not. I am like every other woman in wanting to be special or "the one." I am reconsidering the relationship thing. Will I have insecurities? Logically I know how to get over trust issues, how to give someone their own space, and let them have their own life while being with me. I realize that the energy they share with someone else is special and different in its own way, and so is the energy we share together. I just need to know that it is genuine. That it is not fake and I am not being used.

It is about having strength and confidence. I think as women we think that if he shares energy with someone else that it takes away from their connection. It is a fear maybe that the other is better or they may want them more.

---Loving you is like trying to catch a fleeting ghost
you leave only the scent of your apparition
reach out to touch
but then your gone
leaving only an eerie song
scary illusion
shocking conclusions
It's like making love to a mirage
was I only dreaming that you were here
so much to bear
Your footprints rest on my heart as I watch you walk away
A beautiful mourning of beautiful mornings, days and nights
when we would unite and the universe would stand still
in awe of our connection
somber reflections
of a joyous experience
Teary confusion
thank you for sharing your love with me
It was my responsibility
to nurture my emotions
and not entertain a roller coaster of notions
not really expectations
I just thought love would be more kind
was caught off guard
chose to be a little blind.
I think it is safe to keep you in the bosom of my fantasies
I could always enjoy these
without the pain of dim realities
Your beauty will always be dear to me
a magical occurrence to me.


Today I feel bliss almost too intense to bare I just want to pour all of my love on someone, some people. I want to give tight hugs and long kisses, smiles to make a day. Just realizing all that love that "Nataka" and I conjured up does not have to be exclusively for him. I can share it with so many (not sexually). I felt like I was going through mourning because I still had so much intense love flowing through me from our times. He left so what do I do now. He is supposed to be here so I can continue to pour it on him (this is what I was thinking. So we can raise more and more (it is so addictive). But No! He is NOT here to remind me to continue to spread it. Give it to those who need it. I have shared with him now others need it.

Our connections always have a purpose. I was feeling dim on love energy. He came, now I am full. At first I was heart-broken when he left, but that was necessary for me to shed that old pain and renew. I was hurt because I was like "Ok he is going to be with someone else right after me. He could of at least gave me time to linger."

With the new heart I was like "others need love too, and if they can be open to the beauty without control then they too will be energized and will spread it. It is like an angel sent to do a specific job and when thet are done they can leave.

Creativity is flowing, I am growing. This morning when I woe up I said I wanted to love someone who is more available, and I still do. However I know that people are placed into our lives for reasons. We may want to hold tight to them but the universe has other plans. They may not have the same effect on you or for you if they were there all of the time.

I don't know if he knows what he does for me or all I have been experiencing with hin here. I don't know if he left because he felt it was time, to spread love or for promiscuous reasons, and it doesn't matter. I know what his presence has done for me.

Thats all for now....

Sermon 4: Be Selective

Everyone does not deserve to visit even the entrance of heaven. It is true that we should look to have more divine attributes like all loving, all knowing and so forth, however our coochie does not have too. And I mean this from physical standpoint. I know our portal(coochie) holds wisdom from many eons and I know she loves the world...I'm am talking about "giving up that lovin" and knowing all the shapes sizes and colors of every dick that do not honor, love or appreciate her gifts.

Yes, she loves the world and she has to cry for its sins against her on a regular basis. How many times have you been with someone and afterwards you felt empty? You may have had an orgasm or even multiple but you felt unfulfilled? How many times have you allowed someone to enter your heaven and all the while you had doubts? How many times you have you felt like you were just being fucked or like a piece of ass when you wanted a full sensual, loving, spiritual or committed experience? Have you felt tricked or manipulated? Most of us have gone through this or are going through it right now, women and men.

Taking control is easier said then done because you love so much, because you want to think the best, because you don't know how to say no, because you are horny. Conscious effort every time you are in the situation makes it better. Don't rationalize it if you really want to change it, like saying just this once, I need it. Or whatever you use. You deserve to be honored, you deserve to have what you want. Your coochie deserves the experience she wants and needs.

The good thing about going through those feelings is that they are wonderful healing opportunities. What can you learn, what can you do know. Every experience your coochie has directly affects your life. How, is your choice. Because of time and space I cannot dive in completely on how to use your coochie experiences for growth. In my book there are ways, and stay posted for workshops.

You have to be selective in who you allow in the temple. Some will just suck your energy (drink all of the holy water and not leave any tithe). You have to change the way you do things and things will change for you. You want our men to honor us, well teach them by honoring yourself. Then we may have more to select from.

A visitor of the church said he realizes this is for women and he won’t visit often. This is for men too. You also want to read this and apply. Some of the same principles apply. (Like being selective) You need to be honored as well. Who is going to start the ding a ling church or the penis church, dick church, lingam, phallus, something?

Let Us Pray: Give us the strength and courage to dismiss the things from our lives that bring us discontent. Bring that into our lives that wish to share love and abundance. Help us to see and make the right choices.
Give Thanks!

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Sermon #3 Where Does Your Faith Lie?

Well, "God" has made us in its likeness. Does this mean we have the ability to co create? Do we have the ability to create all things including all that we want with God? If this is so why are so many of us waiting for something "out there" to fulfill us, to give us happiness when it all lies in us.

This is the same question the coochie asks. Why are you waiting for someone else to give me fulfillment. There are a great number of women that do not experience pleasurable sexual experiences. They do not reach orgasm, or as one of the members of the coochie church said the 9, which are the various levels of orgasm. Some have not succeeded in the first.

Having pleasurable sexual experiences is a gift. But it is a gift that you must know you deserve, and a gift that you first have to give to yourself. There are numerous reasons why woman don't reach these levels, so it starts with the woman to clear these blockages wherever and whatever they may be.

We go along thinking that it is the man's job to make us feel good. The reality is, if you have blockages no matter how hard he works to bring you pleasure it is not going to happen. The coochie is saying, "work on me, tighten me up, eat right, heal from the past, touch me, stroke me, caress me. I am your yoni (coochie) let me tell you what I like so you can show others."

Having a knowledgeable partner is wonderful and it helps, it is ideal, but ultimately you are responsible for your own ecstasy. And if you happen to get someone who is not so well versed you can sweetly show him.

It is possible to be steaming hot before your partner even touches you, and when he enters you, you are ready to burst. However, men, this does not excuse you from foreplay. You also have to learn those spots that will send her to the edge. We are here to help each other.

Don't walk around with some blind faith, but know that you are going to get your bliss, can somebody testify!

Let us pray:We know that you have made us in your likeness and that our faith should lie in our abundance of power that lives in us. We thank you for sharing in your greatness and let us continue to feel and live in this. Oh Goddess, let us savor every drop of ecstasy. Open our hearts so we may see that we deserve it and we can give it to ourselves with the help of other co creators.
Give Thanks!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Sermon 2: How Do You Use Your Power

Are you using the power of the Divine coochie for good or evil, to manipulate or heal. Are you using it for pleasure or pain.

We have been given this great power generator. Through our coochie we can gain power and give power. It is all about how we use it when we gain it. This society is more or less a dog eat dog, do for yourself type of society. Early on women learn how to "use what they got to get what they want." So you get women throwing their coochie around, leaving her as dirty as money exchanged from millions of hands. Throwing the coochie around leaves her a bit deranged and nervous. She feels displaced, almost like a foster child that is being moved here and there, never finding a real home. Then she will act out. You will feel her sadness, no matter how much you have, you will feel her neglect and bitterness.

Through her(coochie) power we do have the ability to get anything we want. We have the power to attract to us the greatest things. Just her allure makes people or even the universe want to put all that you desire right into your hands. The universe tells us that whatever we desire is out there for us to have. We do not have to use our coochies to trap or manipulate people. Through your relationship with the divine coochie connected to universe people will automatically be vessels for you to receive.

How do you connect you coochie to the universe? Well it is not hard because we already have that divine connection it's just about tapping into it.

Pay attention to her. Look at her. Pamper her like she is the Goddess herself, for by way of her life is given to this world. Cleanliness is next to godliness. Treat her as a vessel for healing and realization. Use her to renew, to repent, to save you of your sins and the sins of others. Know that whomever enters her will forever be changed and they also will become conduits of power. By doing this, you will always receive. But the thing is you are not just receiving, There will be a constant exchange. When someone enters into your coochie it should literally be heaven. Instead of feeling drained they should be able to come out feeling rejuvenated and ready to get things done. And you should feel the same way when they are in you. Together you both can generate enough power to get all you desire. Through visualization, affirmation, sound and genuine love.

Your power is your responsibility. Remember not all can handle her power. Watch who you whip ;)

Let us pray: Let us continue to know and walk in our power. Let our power exude from us leaving the scent of healing. Help us to bring pleasure and realization to the lives of others. Let us be rejuvenated by all that enters our coochie and protect us from that that does not have the best for our coochies in mind. Help us to see that our coochies (womb) are directly connected to you and through the health of her we can make our lives better in every way.
Give Thanks.